Saturday, December 03, 2005
my heart hurts as i'm writing this
hey ppl... i'm really mad at myself cause i'm one of the useless grandchild... on the 30th of nov at 6.55am, my mom msg me and told me that my atuk tenat and kat icu at cgh... i was werking at that time... at 6 plus, i was on my way to far east and my mom called me and told me that my atuk had passed away... i was so damn angry and sad at the same time... i was angry at myself cause i didnt went to visit him... and i was sad as this is my first loss... then later that night, i was told that my atuk were brought home and i went to melawat with my husband... i can't hold back my tears... although he was always stricts on us when he was still stong, i still love him... then on the 1 dec.. at 9 am, i went to melawat as my atuk dikebumikan on that day... i was so sad and scared as i knoe i will be like that one day... i got my chance to say my last goodbye... i ask for forgiveness from him and i really wanted cry aloud but the muslim believe that we cant cry in front of my atuk...
p.s: atuk, shikin maafkan semua salah dan silap atuk. hope u rest in peace...
took a picture of love 2:22 PM
